I’ve been without any inspiration or motivation to write for almost a year now. It’s been weird but also eye opening. I started my new job last week at a Christian University and something suddenly clicked, and I gained my love for writing back.
You see, there was a lot of hesitation and confusion when entering into this position. Although I knew it was from God in the way things aligned and how I had been praying for a position and this one opened up in the timing God had for me; I still faced a lot of fear and anxiety. I realized that I wasn’t putting my full trust in the Lord, and I was trying to do things on my own. But when I laid down the small amount I had and gave it to God, He began to work through my anxiety and panic attacks and showed me the caring and kind people around me.
This experience made me think about Mark 6 which talks about the boy who gave up all he had to Jesus, and how Jesus used those five loaves and two fish and multiplied them to feed over 5,000 people. God was calling me to do the same and He calls all of us to do the same. When we give God the little we have, He will take that and multiply it beyond our imagination. That means having faith as small as a mustard seed and allowing God to work with what we entrust to Him.
Personally, I had to push through my fear and anxiety and find a posture of faith-led prayer in order to bear the fruit of my period of waiting. If I had given up and turned away from the things God had for me, I would have never experienced the joy that was waiting just steps away.
It is so incredibly hard to give what you have to God. It’s so scary because life has very real consequences for faith-led decisions. But when we learn to trust that God is big enough and that He blesses everything we entrust Him with, we will walk into a season of abundance.
I started wearing a bracelet that says “fishes & loaves” as my daily reminder to give what I have to God. No matter the circumstance, the financial ruin, the hopeless outlook, or unsteady stance, God will use what you give Him. He just wants us to be willing to let go and trust Him enough to take care of our small offering. And when you’re able to do that, you’ll reap the multiplicity of our Lord and Savior.
Song Recommendation of the Week: “Fishes & Loaves” by Josiah Queen
EMILY DICKINSON 